Y tu mama tambien.....

And your mother too!

Ever feel like you've chosen to live your life for others? Though it's a choice innit? And let's be honest, loneliness sucks! Though you can't sell yourself down the river in the name of filling some sort of hole in your soul. Or so I believe anyhow. Oh, the atrocities that are carried out in the name of insecurity! Fuck insecurity I say! Sometimes that's easier said than done. The key is to live selfless, yet selfish in a perfect balance. Yet nothing in life is perfect is it? Things do have a way of balancing out don't they? The yin, the yang, the ID, the ego.

I have to remind myself that I am but a tiny spec in the existence of the universe. Doesn't mean I'm inconsequential either.

I consider myself to be an aware, open minded person who sees life for what it really is. I may be delusional and not even know it but am pretty certain I'm not. Sometimes that awareness is very painful, yet I wouldn't have it any other way.

I'm going to see Fishbone tonite. I used to always see them with my dear partner in crime that is now dead. We used to follow Angelo around whatever club they'd play and giggle like school girls. Angelo liked it I think. When they played @ Numbers once he stalked us back. Talk about your giggling school girls. I miss you Ame every fuckin' day and I hope you will be with me in spirit this evening. I love you!